Last week I talked about grieving the loss of my old self. It's funny how when people point out the obvious, at least for me, it's almost easier to let it go. My therapist last week essentially said, it's okay that you've changed - it in fact would be ridiculous to think that through all of this you wouldn't change. And while I did believe her, I confirmed with a close friend of mine too - she said the same thing - so I guess they are right. My friend also tried to find the silver lining - which normally I would find off putting, but this time it really wasn't. She was right, there are a lot of good, new things that I've become - even if they are little and it's okay that I still don't like parts of myself - I think with time, those parts will slowly drift away.
Anyways, there's been a relatively new song out there - I pretty much exclusively listen to Christian music - I always have.. well not always but for at least a decade or more.
So this new song - it's called Good Good Father. Basically the chorus goes:
You're a good good Father
Its who you are, its who you are, it's who you are
And I'm loved by you
It's who I am, it's who I am, it's who I am
This has really just struck me in the core, because after everything, after all the changes in my being, my faith, my trust in God (while shaken at points) has never gone away. My identity as a daughter of Christ is strong - it's who I am - through and through - I know my God cares and loves me beyond all understanding. Even when I curse him for taking my son and my second baby.
I am grounded in my faith and in this regard, I am forever grateful that my faith is unwavering.
Anyways, there's been a relatively new song out there - I pretty much exclusively listen to Christian music - I always have.. well not always but for at least a decade or more.
So this new song - it's called Good Good Father. Basically the chorus goes:
You're a good good Father
Its who you are, its who you are, it's who you are
And I'm loved by you
It's who I am, it's who I am, it's who I am
This has really just struck me in the core, because after everything, after all the changes in my being, my faith, my trust in God (while shaken at points) has never gone away. My identity as a daughter of Christ is strong - it's who I am - through and through - I know my God cares and loves me beyond all understanding. Even when I curse him for taking my son and my second baby.
I am grounded in my faith and in this regard, I am forever grateful that my faith is unwavering.